However during the interim I was being passed from doctor to doctor and told that it was probably all due to stress. Knowing that what I felt was quite real only intensified my anxiety and to this day I am paying the piper.
Once the diagnosis was made it certainly eased my mind but the fact was the damage was done in terms of anxiety triggers. I suffer with it to this day and lately it has reared its ugly head again and I am trying to work through it.
Just around the time I began to have RA symptoms which went undiagnosed for some time I began to have feelings of butterflies in my chest...sounds strange I know but that is the best way for me to describe it. No pain, no other issues that could lead one to think it was heart disease, etc. That said, I had an EKG done following a sudden, unprovoked panic attack. Long story short a series of tests were done to ensure that it was not my heart and in the end due to some elevated heart rate issues I went on Toprol XL and have been on it for about 15 years. No heart problems surfaced and it was great that was ruled out. Fast forward to a few weeks ago. I had gone off the Torprol in March when I had my para esophageal hiatal hernia repair and have been doing great ever since. No issues at all. Well, one afternoon I had a rather abrupt sensation of an increased heart rate and took my blood pressure and heart rate check myself. It was not overly high considering my elevated anxiety response (only hit 99) and went back down to the low 80's within an hour. Blood pressure was perfect. So I thought well let's just chalk that up to the crazy pace and stress of late....just suffice it to say that there has been a LOT going on and leave it at that. All good I might add. At any rate, since then I periodically get this weird sensation that I had not experienced in 15 years back again and it is wearing me down.
I am so disappointed that after all of this time this nasty, nagging anxiety cycle has resumed. And what really has me concerned is that it tends to be a downward spiral that can be very difficult to crawl up out of.